"Ordinary Girl"

I never really had an ordinary childhood.
I spent a lot of time playing by myself.
I was named to be a free spirit, raised to be independent,
I didn't really fit in with most of the kids at school,
And the few I did call my friends,
I didn't go to their house much.
I spent a lot of time at home,
But I don't have the kind of relationship you'd think I'd have with my parents,
I don't tell them everything,
I never have.
They love me I'm sure,
But my mother never was the sentimental type,
And my dad, we get along alright, but only when we don't wind up on opposite sides of things.
My mother named me well.
I am a free spirit,
One that won't yield to her, she didn't count on that.
Some times I've wished
I could be like all the other girls,
Be just like all the other girls,
Living in an ordinary world,
Just to fit in in an ordinary world,
Just to fit in like an ordinary girl
I've never been an "Ordinary Girl"
And I've been through some messed up shit,
But it's made me stronger.
It's made me wiser.
I see the world in a light few others do,
But I've thought a lot about it and...
...I'd never want to be an "Ordinary Girl"
Who sees the world through rose tinted glasses.
I'd rather see what's really there,
Despite all the pain it is to see the truth,
And all the pain it's caused,
I would give up that knowledge.

~Rain